I had a good childhood. I was a happy little boy. My earliest exposure to the sex industry was probably a bit early to keep me from being screwed up. Both of my parents worked, and I was watched by two different sitters on different days. One of them was a nice high school girl. I don't think she ever did anything to help mess me up. The other was a very nice little old lady. She watched the garbage daytime talk shows while I played on the floor. When I was somewhere around 4 years old Phil Donahue had strippers on. She made me watch. "Watch this." "Watch how they strip down to almost nothing." Why the fuck does a 4 year old need to watch that! What a cluster. I never should have been exposed to that. And I definitely soaked it up. I got an erection. I remember playing with it. On the living room floor. With the baby sitter and I watching strippers on TV. It's not like I was molested. But some innocence was probably lost there.
I saw a CNN.com story yesterday in a similar vein.
http://www.cnn.com/2007/TECH/ptech/12/28/xrated.mp3.player.ap/index.html?iref=newssearch
This girl got an mp3 player that some douche bag bought, filled with porn, and returned. That girl is wrecked. Just like that.
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Oh wow.....just found your blog.
Gotta tell you that what this babysitter did is sexual child abuse. Sexual abuse comes in many, many, many forms. This is one of them. What a trip for a small boy of four to go through. If you read books on sexual abuse you will find stories of people thats lives changed in a second by having someone they are close to look (family member) at them in a sexual way or from making sexual comments.
I'm blown away by the absolute ignorance of that older woman. That's a powerfully impressionable experience to put on a small child.
Keep blogging - it's definitely a form of therapy.
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